Elsie Rivers Journal :]]

yeahh ok... well im bored and theres pretty much nothing to do..
and i havent written in a long time so i thought id set things straight with yall about my life

1.I DONOT like sam anymore..
2.I AM going to an island on the 2nd
3.I do care what jasper thinks but I don't love him or like him or any of that shit
4.I'm dating a guy on the net that I've know for a whole year.
5.I hope I one day get to meet him and love him more then i or anyone could every think.

8.i dont want to stop on 6 or 7 so i'm ending on 8.
mk goodnight.

IVE DECIDED

im only gonna wirte in this when somthing fun happenes. or is i actually did somthing

Going to Marthas Vineyear on August 1st!

ehh sorryyy i got tolazy yesterdayy
so yesterday i went and scrimmaged all the ppl that are in 'force friends'
and got a damn blister on my toe :(
but w/e its all better now..

today i rented movies and watched 2 so far.. i only got 3 tho so ya..
no biggy..
and then i did nothing else all day.. so yeah w/e boring day :P

I've been lazy the past week so i havent been keepin up with this..
But now i am so yeah.. its all good.

I went and played soccer today...
met up with jd unplaned.. we were both hungry and decided to go to taco bell
it was fuuny.. jd some how inhaled hot sause and started to chokeish...
and i ate to fats or to much cuz my tummy hurt for a little bit :|
saw sam... he didnt really talk to me or Anything...

he was with his brother david and two other guys..
all he said to me the whole time wasnt that important..
"yeah we went to your house but you werent there.. we were gonna steal your food" and other stuff... "yeah we dont have a cell phone but your mom wants you to call her""your comming with us? ahh damnit i dont have that much money" and so yeah.. he gave me a straw while every one else was eating ice cream..
i didnt really care tho cuz him and david acted liek they werent to great..
but w/e so he just ate ice cream infront of me.. :|
I kinda have the feeling hes commin over tomorrow.. but im probly wrong.
Ehh yeah... it sucks liking someone that doesnt like you back..
Or at least doesn't act like it.. ehh oh well.. if he doesnt then itll soon Be over, probly :|
But tomorrow i get to sign up for the force soccer team.
Idc.. not like its Gonna be a 'hoot' to sign up.
And then after go play soccer with the mexicans.

But yeah.. besides that its pretty boring in my life right now.
So I'm planing to go to a island.. yeahhh.

Wow.

My mommy work me up today at 11:30 AM to go to Wal-Mart
I got a hair straightener [FINALLY!]
Chips. :] MORREe Orange Juice.
And stuff to make bracelts :D
I then took a shower.. was lazy till like 6
Then straightened my hair.
Put clothes on that i was gonna wear to the carnival.
Then started to head [walk x_x]twards the place!
And all the sudden I see Jasper walking up to come get me.
That made me SSOOOOO happy to see him :]]
I took it as a sign that he wasn't mad at me anymore :DD
Yeah then i had fun at the carnival yada yada yada.
I came home.
Ate. YUMM. :P
Then made a braclet.
I think its sams. lol

I should start a buiessness in this.. mhmmm

OH OH OH OHHHH
tomorrow I'ma stalk little fat kids at the carnival.
Oh and the creepy guys that work the rides :]

Today..
Hmm...

WEEELLLLL
It woulda been totally awsome if i saw sam :(
But besides that I woke up at 5 or 6 can't really remember.
Then got on the computer.
Turned on the TV and watched a Disney movie.
It was about kong fu and what not.
It was obviously good cuz after it I found myself doing kung fu-ish type things.
And then I also had chocolate milk at the time too.
BUT then I went with my mom and dad to go watch fireworks and only found weems there.
But he left soon.
And the gayest part was the whole time i was looking around for sam.
THAT.IS a big.big. sigh that you like the guy.
Mhmmm.
Then I came home and watched that Disney movie again.
Boring day, I know.

Today was totally fun...
Sam cam over and we watched Italy win their game in the world cup :D
ANNNDD then we went to the feilds for like...
10 minutes and it started to rain.. haha it was fun walkin home
3 cars stoped and asked if i needed a ride
Haha, guess they think i looked pretty or somthing in the rain :P
Then i came home and watched tv all night then went to bed :))
AND THE CCCOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLESST thing is, today is JULY 4!!!
And so far i've done nothing for this day lol



Sammy boy!! :D

PIctures of CHildhood?!
Say WAaaa?!

Well today was fun...
i went to the soccer feilds and did nothing..
and after a few minutes of doing nothing i decided to go with sam and ross
we were gonna go rent a movie and then watch it at my house..
the movie sam picked out turned out to be a documentary bleh.
and yeah so we changed it to trigun yeah.. even tho ive seen them all befor
but yeah... sam was "cuddling" or "holding" me w/e you wanna call it
and to tell the truth i kinda dont really like it..
but then ross has to leabe and then sam leaves like 15 minutes after..
then i get on the net and talk to mike and jasper..
they fucking were pissed that i "ditched" them at the feilds..
and how was i suposted to know that jasper all the sudden decided to hate sam??
and the only reason he started to hate sam is beacuse he called me a ho..
damn..he says.. or said he loved me more then i knew.. and now when i talked to him about it trying to get it all back to normal he says he doesnt care about me ANYMORE and that just really made me wanna go run infrot of a car..
but instead i tryied to go to sleep and was crying and hopeing the whole time that he'll for give me :(
but anyways.. i think it will all be ok..
i mean.. he might be different or somthing.. idk but i think he'll call me a friend again.. i hope
and now when sam was leaving yesterday he said he was gonna come back tomorrow.. and wake me up xP
but then ima talk to him and ask him why he called me a ho and all that ungood stuff and yet good stuff so then jasper will trust me or w/e again..
idc for anything else except if jaspers mad.. sad.. hate me or w/e
so suck it bitches!!

Weeellll
today was pretty sweet..
Jd told me he was gonna go to the feilds and yeah we all were gonna meet down There like usual.
And mike already left too.. and so i couldnt tell him that my mom wouldnt let Me go to the feilds unless i had the dishes done..
Wich im slow as hell at doing them but hey w/e :P
But then im back in my room just.. doing random crap waiting a little bit for The dishes to soak
And then all the sudden Jd comes right into my room and is like "yeah.. i left My cd player here"
Ahah funny kiddo
And so i give it to him and then tell em i cant go to the feilds until i get The dishes done
And so yeah.. he nice person he is tells me to go do em and hes wait in my Room.. HELL i didnt even know he was commin over :P
Haha and i was also in just a sports bra and boxers :D
But yeah.. i hate dishes and he made me do em :(
ANDDD he also changed the channel on my tv
(not like i really care)
And now i cant find that channel again :( it was a good one too..
And then to add to all that he like basicly watched me change haha oh well w/e
Not like he reacted.. and he has probly seen that all befor.. lol